How I feel now, after sharing my heart with my friends:
(Side note: I bought my husband red Converse for Valentine's Day. Is there a better way to express your love? I think not.)
I had been feeling more than a little beaten down, suffering the after-effects of a cold, and emotionally tapped out from caring for our frenetically-attached Safe Family toddler. I don't think you'll find "frenetically- attached" in any official literature, but it works here, trust me. I had let the words of another make me doubt everything I was doing and totally forgot for Whom I was doing it.
Enter my friends. They reminded me that it does matter. They gave me the One Day at A Time speech- that never gets old and is always true. They affirmed how hard it really is. They would have given me grace if I threw in the towel, but they saw I still had a spark and they flamed it.
I walked away thinking, "it is wearying to absorb someone's trauma, but isn't that exactly what Christ did for me? And with Him inside of me, why couldn't I do this?".
Are you weary and overwhelmed? Reach out to a friend! Like a real life conversation. Let the kids play in the backyard and bear your soul! You will feel so much better. I know I do.
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I'm glad you have such friends. :) Lavish grace on you today!
ReplyDeleteAmen, sista!
ReplyDeleteWow that is a great description "frenetically attached"! I have a frentetically attached foster toddler! Woo nelly.....I can barely go to the bathroom without her freaking out. Luckily it seems to be getting a little better. She has been with us for 2 1/2 months. But now she doesn't scream as much going to her visits with her birth parents.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you have good friends to keep you going. There are just days when it is hard. I will be very happy when our school year is over. I just finished an emotionally draining battle to get our daughter with NS back on to an IEP for middle school. We won, but it was a fight. Honestly, I am getting tired of fighting. But tomorrow is another day LOL Good luck with your gang
Kelly in Colorado
Kelly, I don't know why we didn't have a big ole sit down talk at the NS conference last summer! We have so much in common. So, it only took 2.5 months to get better, huh?! Yikes. Somedays I can just laugh about how crazy it all is, and other times I don't cope quite as well ;) Glad you got the IEP for your daughter- good work, mama!
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