I skipped one of my kid's curriculum nights.
I didn't sign-up to receive text messages about my child's homework assignments.
I said no to yet another Safe Family placement.
I didn't sign anyone up for AWANA.
No more "extra" physical therapy for my boy.
What the heck is going on with me?
Room to breathe.
I need to make room for these things in my life, or they won't happen.
I remember a few years ago hearing Jill Savage talk about creating space in your life- she called it having a "margin". Having that margin means if one thing goes wrong in your day, you will have enough energy, time, and patience to get through it.
Days where I have no margin completely stress me out. Next Tuesday is one of those days. I'm double booked in the afternoon and triple booked in the evening. I need to do something about this.
I don't love having nothing to do, in fact a little positive stress keeps me going. I like going to bed tired. But too much, and I am too easily irritated with my kids. Too much and I can't find time to meet with that friend who needs me. Too much, and I'm not laughing anymore. My joy is gone.
But no one can lighten that load, but me. It means saying no and cutting things out. Even good stuff.
I'm still finding my rhythm this school year, but I am determined to make space to experience joy for myself and offer grace to my family and friends.